20 Plus Years

20 Plus Years
By: Tyler Ross

I’m uncomfortable

at the constant

thought that I miss

my friends.

The only ones left,

they’re inside my head.

I once spoke to a woman

that told me

if someone doesn’t make

the effort

in return

after three tries,

to let up.  But I

never quite

understood,

because I cared so fucking much for
those I wanted close

kept getting so far

away.

I miss when my friends missed me. 
Wanted to see me. 
Life is lonely 
when efforts are made in sizable numbers, 
but the number 
in return 
formulated this hole 
into my heart. Fuck feeling 
the efforts I’ve employed 
return as I feel sad,
disappointment. I used to not care, 
but as I get older I care 
more to have my friends. 

Buzz Kill?

Buzz Kill?

By: Tyler Ross

It was another late night

but it started to rain.

This night was something different

when it ended so insane.

I can't believe such dumb luck

then I realized

I'm not supposed to be happy

when you're seeing those other guys.

I hate to be so selfish

when we're out on a date.

But don't you find it funny

when things are going great?

That feeling of excitement

where you truly fucking care.

That's why it was surprising,

with your sex motive there.

Do you even care?

Is this a date or you just out to fuck me?

I can't relate when truth turns to nothing.

You smiled so bright. 

I liked you right on site

I wish you'd just grow up

and you'll see you're doing it right.

You've got me so miserable

reflecting on myself.

Feeling my accomplishment

is negative to your health.

Let's get something straight

you're afraid of a good thing.

But don't you tell me

I'm the one being mean.

You're misunderstood.

Is this a date or you just out to fuck me?

I can't relate when truth turns to nothing.

You smiled so bright. 

I liked you right on site

I wish you'd just grow up

and you'll see you're doing it right.