Big Talk, No Walk

Big Talk, No Walk

By: Tyler Ross

Preach, you selfish fool.

Yeah, I’m talking to you.

Just like a faux leader,

telling other people what to do.

You are entitled, insecure

And need validation.

It’s your way or the highway,

Fuck your elevation! 

You thrive off solidarity

or wherever you see fit.

You feed on negativity

Or when an issue takes a hit.

There have always been these issues,

Where were you before?

No need to answer,

I don’t care for you anymore.

I don’t buy your motivations.

I question everything you do.

You’re a popularity contest,

policing anyone with a different view.

You’re a tainted name.

I wish it wasn’t true.

You make me sick

from the lack of compassion living in you.

No need to comment,

you’re just like the bullies on the Net.

I won’t tread on your thoughts,

wasted time,  get a fucking grip!

Outside looking in,

sink or swim.

It’s a cold world,
your bullshit is wearing thin.

Outsider

Outsider

By: Tyler Ross

So, what the fuck?

Living, wishing for the best.

I wish.

I fucking wish!

Completely forgotten

How is it this?

A standout, never

Trying to keep it together.

I see you.

You don’t see me.

I reached out.

You pushed back.

Silence

Always fucking silence!

Repeat. Repeat.

Too many souls

Raised with no manners

So, I pick up my pieces

Heart in tatters

And you expect me to act normal?

No respect!
That’s what matters.

Fuck your excuses
and fuck feeling sadder.

Generation Kill

Generation Kill
By: Tyler Ross

It’s truly sad to witness and experience the state the world is in.

Communication is at an all-time low and not even at rock bottom.

What does that tell us?

Texting is the most popular form of conversing, next to the Internet.

Respect is lessening as much as empathy.

Entitlement, validation and selfishness overpower the public, which consumes this globe.

Women, race and gender still lack equality and acceptance inside many minds.
The planet is constantly in trouble, but I still see assholes toss trash out their car windows is just one example out of the thousands wrong.

Health care is absent from roll call yet again, all because the medical world of prescriptions drugs and private companies would take a major hit in revenue just for starters.

The school system is going through its run of the mill motions to please a bunch of shitty adults that have no real interest in these young minds, but to control.

There is learning to be done about the real world, but it isn’t being taught, instead algebra, gym, foreign languages are requirements.

Languages are important, but aren’t necessary depending on ones living situation. We should be educated to understand the way politicians speak, and beyond the constant battle of drug abuse.
Priority is backward.

Greed is still high.

The rich are still rich and the poor keep getting poorer, when they should flip flop every once in a while.
Balance may very well ensue and a more well rounded understanding too.

Ancient civilizations with less thrived more efficiently without all this junk and attitude, but with more at the tip of our fingers, we cling to constant feuds and controlling mentalities.

Honest, driven, compassionate and transparent people should be given more of a chance.

Nerdy kids are finally popular now that nerd culture is popular, which is nice to see, but even they too now have used the power to bully.

I don’t know why I wanted to write this all down.

I suppose I am feeling neglected and cheated in my life.

Most days I want out, but then I remember I have more to give.
Even if just once in a blue moon, it’s more love to another that might be suffering just like the heart of my own brother.
He’s great and I don’t understand the foolish ways he’s treated.

Why him too?

This world isn’t such a nice place.

It hasn’t been for centuries.

I feel more alone and I’ve realized no one feels a bit like me.

I’m not done…

Camera Shy

Camera Shy
By: Tyler Ross

An excuse is the Photoshop 

to photography, 

which only covers up reality.

When you felt guilty, 

you presented me with these pictures
to help justify 

your reason 

for leaving out the truthful image 

which is killing you 

inside.

Friendship (1994 - present)

Friendship (1994-present)
By: Tyler Ross

All
I've
wanted
was
to be included
more than
once.

* As an adult, friendship is a thing I don't believe in just like santa claus and magic. It's something I've read about, seen amongst my peers and dreamt about growing up, but I've never experienced a tight-knit, consistent group of people as friends in my life. I've always been the middle man, the last resort, or the go-to. I played baseball competitively as a youth and onward through high school and football, but even there, I never felt more than just a teammate on the field for that time being. I can never grasp what true lasting friendship means. It's kind of like growing up without a parent or not shown much love to where you become overly sensitive toward the subject or standoffish when its finally presented. It just hurts to think about it. This is where I'm still at going on 30 years old. It's quite tough to make substantial friends, even living in Los Angeles and working within the entertainment business. It's a very lonely feeling for me still no matter how much I put myself out there. The receiving end is usually very little to none, but still I wait and or try.

Sad

Sad
By: Tyler Ross

Its 2am
and my sexual frustrations find me
masturbating on the toilet
feeling sorry for myself
because
I am a bummed out
sucker, who treated the girl he likes
a bit too nicely
or so it seems...
Now feeling the ignoring process
roll on through,
my mind reaches out
into the silence
for hope,
but my lonely libido
distracts and
numbs the hurt
for just a couple minutes
before
I start to miss her again.

Hot, Warm, Hot, Cold or So I Think

Hot, Warm, Hot, Cold or So I Think
By: Tyler Ross

I don't know what certain things mean.
Regarding signals, intended for,
but I don't intend to ignore.
They just fly in, land
and settle like a feather caught on a fence.
I live there when I get this way.
Happy with something new
though unsure with the unnecessary
silence.
A reciprocation lessening
from time to time.
Do the pages turn the same
or is one snagged upon the seemingly high fence
                                                                       I've built?
I never know if I'm doing well
because silence at the end of the day
clutches my hand and holds me
until I can no longer take it.
I seem to not be able to shake it,
so I sit alone
with my records
picking through my brain
late at night like one questions
the unknowns of the universe.
I'm confident but the silence...

Nice Girl

Nice Girl
By: Tyler Ross

In my mind, I’m not fine.
Seek me out, any time.
Erase the noise,

that keeps revisiting me.

Sow me up at my mouth.

Don’t give me reasons,

to laugh about.

I was happy no less than twelve hours ago.

In my mind, I was fine.
Reached on out, now I’m blind

stolen senses,

there’s a silence now living in you.

Build me up, break me down.

Give me little,

then you head on out.

I'm not sure what this all really means.

I gave you me,

You ate it up

I’m just bones left to dust.

I could have sworn

you wanted this like me.