On The Inside

On the Inside
By: Tyler Ross

In an instant, your words flowed right into me
You didn’t speak, but your absence said everything
I’ve made mistakes before, but how can you blame me now?
Look at how many times I’ve tried
I feel I’m fading out

No matter how much effort
You continued to stay the same
How do I stand a chance?
When this feels like one big game
This isn’t fair to me
You’ve ignored me all too well
Something in you changed
This treatment feels like hell

I see you want to be alone and that’s fine here with me
After all we’ve got so close, but to you it doesn’t mean a thing
This all used to make sense, but something isn’t right
Every chance I’ve talked with you
Ends with you in a defensive fight

What happened is important
But a new day brings nothing clear
I’ve tried best to communicate
But it’s a one-sided mirror
I can’t see you now
But I wish I could, I do
Too many times, I’ve been pushed aside
Left with no answers and an excuse

There were many times, we stayed up late
It wasn’t easy
Never a dull moment of course
Now you act like you can’t stand me
Is it really me?
Or is it something more?

It’s safe to say, we have bad days
They’re never easy
I used to brighten up yours
Now you treat me as if I need a reason
In wanting to love you more and more

I’m dying on the inside
Only you can make this right
I'm dying on the inside
Struggling in our own history