Take Me Under

Take Me Under

By: Tyler Ross

Depression, take me under.

I don’t deserve nice things,

you took the love from her.

I’m depressed too, 

can’t you see?

I’m buried in sadness,

and

that hardening feeling of loss

is overcoming me.

I sleep less,

I dream in nightmares.

I think about you still

and why the fuck

do I still care?

You left me cold,

sad and alone,

while you got happier 

far over there.

Please stop this!

The feelings come and go,

but won’t stay away.

I still want you

and

I don’t know why that is.

You stepped all over me,

used me,

and

white lies to cover up who the fuck knows.

But as a human being loving another,

I still got love for you

and

I don’t think you deserve me,

or

the time I still want to give you.

Fuck!

Depression, take me under.

You & Life > Everything Else

You & Life > Everything Else

By: Tyler Ross

Everything

around me is losing color.

Life sucks without you

in it.

I'm focused on myself,

but

no matter how much

I get done

or

how much I try to continue

with my life,

I can't fully. 

No matter what came between us,

it's not enough to stop loving you. 

I haven't stopped 

and 

I won't

because I can't fake or force away

my feelings.

I am crying as I write this.

These tears come and go,

but they won't stop

and I know why. 

You were enough and then some.

Irreplaceable.

You were enough

and life sucks

without you in it.

Your Projections

Your Projections

By: Tyler Ross

Sometimes I wanna tear out my skull 

and reveal the rotting pain bruises below.

I need closure and your secrets unleashed

and these sleepless nights to end

so I can find some peace.

I want something to ease my mind,

the ripping at my heart has me falling behind.

I’m fucking sad, and I want it to end,

and I don’t have enough energy to phone a fucking friend.

I’m all alone and the shadows seep in,

it’s getting darker

and my mood won’t fucking bend.

Back to happiness you’ve been stripping from me

all because you’re not happy with who you think you should be.

Projections!

I woke again, tormented by dreams

and still your constant silence ripping at my seams.

Shed my skin, let it all in

exposed to the bone and scared, 

my thoughts are turning grim.

I want you to think of me and not just yourself,

the damage you’re doing 

and destroying my fucking health.

You say you truly love me, 

but you’re forcing me out to be the victim, 

now numbing me with fucking doubt.

I feel diseased plagued by your own scars,

I’ve been walking a million miles, while you’ve got the car.

Left behind, I can’t climb out this well

You’re slowly cutting our rope while I scream for help

in hell.

Your projections!

Projections!

Unknown Hours

Unknown Hours

By: Tyler Ross

I thought about you today,

but not in that obvious kind of way.

I worried some

and

waited hours for 

your text.

I got lost in thought.

It made me kind of

a mess.

I am

not sure

why I am receiving this treatment.

You have no answers.

I have a hole in my heart

growing.

You are the all-knowing

of what's going on...

and what will come of us

in the end.

Its hard to fight

a one-sided fight.

Its hard to sleep

each night

after you say good night.

Not knowing if we'll last

and

I don't want to be just a part

of your past.

Happy With Me?

Happy With Me?

By: Tyler Ross

I am like a disease

to you

an inconvenience,

a life drainer,

a depletion of mood.

But I don’t see it that way,

or 

at least I try not to.

Fighting my cancerous thoughts

from making me believe

those projections from

you

are my absolute responsibility.

Bricks are stacking high.

Why can’t you just try

to see things through my eyes?

The hurt, the pain, 

the unsatisfying struggle inside your brain 

boiling without much

cool.

Let me see the best you

I feel for you,

but

I’m losing strength.

Feeling is sailing toward sea.

Depression is growing in me.

Love isn’t gone,

but it feels like

its going from you.

Can’t you be happy 

with a guy like me?

A guy that you know deep down

is a great guy all around

A treasure

someone else lost,

but you ultimately found.