Center Framed

Center Framed
By: Tyler Ross

There is this space
needing to be filled.

Where the untamed yells
and where my inner child cries for help.

Cold and desperate.
A million unread messages.

The solitude of a warm heart.
A man in the middle.

The rooms are crowded.
The hunger for one.
Just one inch.
A second of that desired feeling.
Just once
to be achieving
the beat of another
center framed.

To remember my name
again and again.
Center framed.

Buzz Kill?

Buzz Kill?

By: Tyler Ross

It was another late night

but it started to rain.

This night was something different

when it ended so insane.

I can't believe such dumb luck

then I realized

I'm not supposed to be happy

when you're seeing those other guys.

I hate to be so selfish

when we're out on a date.

But don't you find it funny

when things are going great?

That feeling of excitement

where you truly fucking care.

That's why it was surprising,

with your sex motive there.

Do you even care?

Is this a date or you just out to fuck me?

I can't relate when truth turns to nothing.

You smiled so bright. 

I liked you right on site

I wish you'd just grow up

and you'll see you're doing it right.

You've got me so miserable

reflecting on myself.

Feeling my accomplishment

is negative to your health.

Let's get something straight

you're afraid of a good thing.

But don't you tell me

I'm the one being mean.

You're misunderstood.

Is this a date or you just out to fuck me?

I can't relate when truth turns to nothing.

You smiled so bright. 

I liked you right on site

I wish you'd just grow up

and you'll see you're doing it right.

Positive x Negative = Negative
By: Tyler Ross

Confined by judgment, I can't restrain me. 
I set off.

I feel subtracted, severely shamed, 
on the path of misdirection.

So trapped inside my head, this prison 
living with my past mistake.

So trapped inside my head, it isolates 
as your reminder bites hard.

This endless battle, this casted stone, 
this decision maker.

I am nothing. I am eternalness.

I'll Stay Gold

I’ll Stay Gold

By: Tyler Ross

I won’t change these morals, these values I’ve set.

It’s easy to go against every word that is said.

But that isn’t me.

I live my life free

from drinking, drugs, and promiscuous sex.

Forever staying free,

from the substances that alter and abuse the present

and live my life for me, out of step

Not above it all, but from what’s accepted.

My PMA keeps me sound, honest, and understanding.

Staying gold is the mentality I uphold to keep from drowning.

In a negative world judging the way I lead.

But that’s okay because I’m only in this for me.

For me,

staying gold is the key

to a healthy existence.

Forever I will be resistant.

Call me what you want.

Judge me for the way that I live.

I am still straight edge.

And don’t need people

telling me how I should live.

Nothing they can do can change what this is.

I am a straight edge.

I’ll stay gold for as long as I live.

A Better Life

A Better Life

By: Tyler Ross

Well, it looks like you gave up on me

And I can’t believe what I did see

I’m the only one to blame

When I bettered myself just for me

And the end result couldn’t help you see

I’m the only one to blame

So, don’t try hard to understand her

You’re gonna waste the time you have

And you know you’ll never get it back

When you hope.

When you dream.

It takes you away from reality.

Keep your head.

Don’t regret.

Life experience is what you’ll get.

I know most of the time,

it’s hard to keep that in mind.

With lessons learned,

comes a better life.

When I struggled with the months ahead

And you went against the boundaries set

I’m the only one to blame

When I asked you why you loved me

You came up with a short list of three

I’m the only one to blame

So, don’t try hard to understand her

You’re gonna waste the time you have

And you know you’ll never get it back

When you hope.

When you dream.

It takes you away from reality.

Keep your head.

Don’t regret.

Life experience is what you’ll get.

I know most of the time,

it’s hard to keep that in mind.

With lessons learned,

comes a better life.

This situation won’t get any easier

If you continue to let what you know grow stronger

Use the information you’ve been handed

and leave your confusions behind

Learn from your mistakes

Keep moving forward and you will find

A better life

When you hope.

When you dream.

It takes you away from reality.

Keep your head.

Don’t regret.

Life experience is what you’ll get.

I know most of the time,

it’s hard to keep that in mind.

With lessons learned,

comes a better life.

Pumpkin Post-it Note

Pumpkin Post-it Note

By: Tyler Ross

Some nights when I’m all alone.

When I can’t breathe and my thoughts want to roam

leaving me sad over the love spent with you.

And I wonder if your thoughts do it to you,

while next to him.

Love lies.

Only if you let it, it will.

Love lies.

Only if you let it, it will.

Break me, from this limbo-like world

and change me, so it will no longer hurt.

Let me dream, deeply to sleep.

Where I can be brave,

brave enough to see,

a healthy boy not beaten badly over she.

Love lies.

Only if you let it, it will.

Love lies.

Only if you let it, it will.

Love lies.

Only if you let it, it will.

Love dies.

Only if you let it, it will.

Aren't LIke You

Aren’t Like You

By: Tyler Ross

These quiet eyes, they looked to me with full attention.

I had nervous shoes, with one glance,

I feel like giving up.

It’ll be all right, if you and I could write a song tonight.

I dusted off that ole frame, humming a tune,

pretending to be with you.

Girls around here just aren’t like you.

Smart like you are.

Girls around here just aren’t like you.

Converse like you do.

You came to me, beaming a smile that really helped me.

We shared a few words, your second glance,

I feel like I’m being heard.

I’ll play the night, with some songs to make it right.

Pen thoughts, hope for another shot,

to sing songs with you.

Girls around here just aren’t like you.

Smart like you are.

Girls around here just aren’t like you.

Converse as you do.

Girls around here just aren’t like you.

Aren’t like you.

Aren’t like you are.

Girls around here just aren’t like you.

They just don’t smile like you do.

What The Hell Is This?

What The Hell Is This?

By: Tyler Ross

It's been quite some time since we were us, but let’s not try and retract.

We both knew what went wrong; so let’s just leave it at that.

The hurt left inside wouldn’t die, but I forced myself to forget.

I tried to stay your friend, while you pretended like you even gave a shit.

Your cold hands came over me and blanketed my nice

Left me over technicalities and didn’t think twice

While I tried and tired, I tried my best to be just a friend

You took my efforts like a grain of salt and blew it into the wind

You’re sick, sick

Let’s be honest

After all I have done for you

Still trying to stay the calmest

(You aren’t being honest)

I hate the way you make me feel

Is goodbye now beyond us?

Let’s get real

I try to sustain the good in me, but don’t think for one second

I’d let you continue to ignore the respect that you’ve neglected

In finding peace in all of this, you surprised me more than expected

Now I pulled myself away because you don’t deserve my friendship

You’re sick, sick

Let’s be honest

After all I have done for you

Now moving beyond this

(You aren’t being honest)

I hate the way you make me feel

Is goodbye now beyond us?

There’s no point if I’m treated your way

To stick around, while I’m at bay

I hate the way you make me feel

Hate the way you make me feel

It’s a two-way street in a friendship

But, you think at this point, I’d stick with it?

I hate the way you make me feel

Hate the way you make me feel

So sick

Are You Cold? Have My Jacket

Are You Cold? Have My Jacket

By: Tyler Ross

I’m a wreck

Just trying to be honest

Forcing myself to be busy is the only way I can fight this

When alone I just can’t keep my head clear

Don’t know the man inside me now reflected in the mirror

I miss your dog and I miss all of your family

Providing this distance is the only way to reach sanity

For real, if you could, (I would)

Would you do it all again?

There’s a hole in my heart where you nestled in

And still I want the best for you, darling

Don’t believe this was a waste of our time

I couldn’t forget you if I tried

You tore out the best that was left in me

I’m burnt so let me be blistered

Now see my hopes spill out in front of me

Questions raised with no answers

And I’ve got nothing to hide though I’ve tried

Had everything I ever wanted and it died

Don’t know where to turn but inside

I admit I can only blame myself

Holding onto my illusions pushing you toward someone else

And now that you’re gone, there’s a big part of me missing

I’ll scream out for you and hope that you’re listening

I felt the wrath of your irritation

But I believe you’re still there

I’m told the way to heal is to respect and give space

And time will show me you still care

And I want the best for you, darling

Don’t believe this was a waste of our time

I couldn’t forget you if I tried

You tore out the best that was left in me

I’m burnt so let me be blistered

Now see my hopes spill out in front of me

Questions raised with no answers

And I’ve got nothing to hide though I’ve tried

Had everything I ever wanted and it died

Don’t know where to turn but inside

I try to be cool, but it’s tough at times

A love this deep melted my mind

But I know that I have to be honest

And the only way to be healthy is if I keep my promise

You tore out the best that was left in me

I’m burnt so let me be blistered

Now see my hopes spill out in front of me

Questions raised with no answers

And I’ve got nothing to hide though I’ve tried

Had everything I ever wanted and it died

I don’t want to feel like I’m feeling inside

Pink And Green

‎Pink And Green

By: Tyler Ross

Like your perfect threads,

we wove into fabric.

Sewn so effortless,

love's ball of bliss, we buttoned together,

so magnetic.

Not My Cup Of Comfort

Not My Cup Of Comfort
By: Tyler Ross

Today is the day that I free myself
Could you see it coming after the declining of my health?
I begged and pleaded, please don’t go away
Now I close my eyes and pretend to forget you, anyway
I hate this feeling and the way it has to be
The only time I hated you is when you gave up on me
But, let’s be honest we’re a great fucking match
And the only way you’ll remember is if I let go, and move on from our past

Acting To Get By

Acting To Get By

By: Tyler Ross

He was asked what's wrong, but he replied, "I'm fine."

We called him a bad actor.

His emotions like after a jog shined over his skin.

Uncomfortable with the withdrawals, he suffered.

Due to the fact he was without

the one he truly cared for, who remained distant.

Not knowing what she wanted, he still felt true love was there

hiding its pretty half of the face.

Right now, she hadn't the interest or the care.

So, he acted.

Putting on the best facade he possibly could

because he was dying inside knowing he could no longer surface

such intense feelings, for they pushed his love further away.

His core, where he kept her;

the conquering all, the stellar, the comparable to nothing left uncertain for its return.

He walks with his head up, but inside he burned.

It escaped sometimes.

Sometimes around her, we still called him a bad actor.

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Solutions

Solutions
By: Tyler Ross

To the place of dreams where all life limbos, waiting to bloom
Attracting silence, but swimming in motion searching for the truth
Where discomfort throws a party, but only invites you
I was clawing through its darkness, were I found the proof

In the solutions, where the problem blindfolds progress, begging for more
As I fought myself and the unhealthiness to an evening of the score
To find the respect I needed and the clarity to rebuild, opening up space
Not realizing I was pushing away positive, leaving emptiness to replace

I tried everything, forcing more than I wanted to
I let stress take control; it rubbed off into your soul
Now, to the place of action where life takes baby steps, waiting for you
To the place of action where life takes baby steps, waiting for you

Chutes & Ladders

Chutes & Ladders
By: Tyler Ross

My secrets seep
They make me weak
When heard by the wrong ears
They aren’t my friends
We play ‘just pretend’
On the old stomping grounds of resonance
I bite my tongue
Then meet teeth-to-teeth
To refrain from making sense
Amongst judgmental beings
Stained and convoluted grassy greens
With makeshift fences
I blame me.

Not hip to your world
In what we all find to be cool
Over thinking, I’ve got these tools
Still in denial, I sing with a poor man’s smile
Passionate, but hell bent
That money motivates your style
My stomach’s churning
Hot and bothered, depressed and burning
The useless act to compare
Just be myself
I always told myself
But, I blame you.

Worried (life moves in a hurry)
I can’t slow it down
My days are like chutes
Fucking ladders can’t be found
Worried (forcing my life’s journey)
Full of mistakes
Disillusioned myself again
Turning this around is what it’ll take

Tantalizing faces creep
They cut me deep
By their attempts to lend a hand
I am self-aware,
Although I stare
I’m aware there’s deception there
My hopes are cloud 9.2
An above average grade I’ve painted blue
By the help of the healthy heart I once knew
Not only can I not compete
This heartache boils inside of me
And so I’m told it just wasn’t meant to be
I blame these dreams and me
For letting me believe this distance was sincerity

Worried (life moves in a hurry)
I can’t slow it down
My days are like chutes
Fucking ladders can’t be found
Worried (forcing my life’s journey)
Creates unnecessary mistakes
Disillusioned myself again
My confidence is returning

And so is my peace of mind

So, I give thanks