My Gift, This Curse

My Gift, This Curse
By: Tyler Ross

My thoughts aren’t behind me
I hold those important to myself
And when it’s time to embrace them
I grow deeper in declining health
SAVE!

Wake up in sweat, it’s time to exhale now
Where am I? Where have you gone?
Ideal thinking keeps on dragging me down
I miss you, although you’re not here
These dreams turn to nightmares
I feel I’ve lost you now
Take warning, my gift this curse

My troubles cannot be forgotten
I cling to the shores
I feel the distance behind me
When I picture my life away from yours
STAY!

Wake up in sweat, it’s time to exhale now
Where am I? Where have you gone?
Reaching out doesn’t feel like anything in return
I miss you, although you’re not here
These dreams turn to nightmares
I feel I’ve lost you now
Repeated journey, my gift this curse

I do believe this is not for me
The way we used to be has given me many memories
Today, you are now free
No more stress and feeling a mess
I can finally breathe

These dream turn to fantasies
Nothing now will hold me back
From knowing and avoiding, my gift this curse